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Haven't posted a journal here in quite a while, but I have kept with my goal of keeping DA updated, i'm proud of me!

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Hello everyone! I've been working hard at keeping this account updated with all my work, I am very pleased with where my gallery is at for the time being.  In the future I want to figure out how to make a custom journal for myself and fancy up my page with custom art, but that will be for a future date.  Right now I want to get more involved in the community here, so I'm opening up this journal for questions! Get to know more about me and my work if you'd like Here's the little bio blip from my front page to get me started.

Hello! I'm Kazul, but my Friends call me Kaz. I'm 25 years old, I'm married to :iconfrosteefox: I am a Mormon, Professional animator, fursuit maker, Blizzard fan, Cosplayer and more! 

I work as a professional 3D animator on a popular online kids video game, but In my spare time I love making things, so the majority of my gallery is full of Fursuits, cosplays, plushes, art dolls, resin toys ect. My online Persona is a Gryphon, half American Kestral and Half Cougar and all Western American. I particiapte in the furry fandom as a hobby and I also have many other likes and interests! I like country music, movie soundtracks, action movies, computers, animating, anime, juggling, unicycling, drawling, mountains, camping, deserts, and arches national park. I love video games especially stratgey, RTS and tycoon games are my favorite. I'm also a particular fan of Blizzard, all their games are so awesome. I love being apart of the Blizzard community on Twitter, you can follow me here: 

So go ahead, ask me whatever you want to know about my work or me! 
hey! I just bought a year membership and I'm overhauling my gallery. Lots will be stored and I am organizing the rest into folders. I am going to be far more active here and I have big plans for the future of my gallery and work here on deviant art. Thank you to everyone who watches me!
  • Listening to: Nightwish
** I am not open yet, this is just one step closer to opening again**

sorry for the plush dump! most my commission come from over on Furaffinity, so i've become less active here ^^'

Hey everyone! This journal is to update my prices plush commissions I've been doing commissions for over a year and feeling things out and I think it's appropriate to update my prices.

My custom plushes are bean bag plushes, meaning they have bean bags in them to give them weight. They are made of anti-pill fleece and are this size:… I can make any species , and add on most any detail you can com up with. Don't be afraid to challenge me!

Base line Price: $100, that price will increase based on how many colors and the complexity/ level of detail in the design.

Add ons: These things will add an additional $5 to the price. here are some examples:
removable/static collars-……
Ear gauges-…
wings large/chibi……
Faux fur hair tufts:……

If you want something that you don't see on this list, just ask me about it and I can probably make it!

Quotes are absolutely free and come with no obligation. Shoot me an email at lrdkazul[at] with a reference sheet of your character. I'll need a reference sheet or some sort of picture were I can see clearly the markings and colors. I don't view mature art, so please don't send me mature ref pictures!

A Slot list is posted on my profile. I do not require payment as soon as you get a slot, I only require payment a week or two before starting your plush. I will contact you when I'm to your slot. I'll give you an exact quote when you contact me and that'll be how much you pay me when I'm ready to start. My quotes will include shipping.
I can take paypal or personal checks. Though I prefer paypal because it is faster. i'll give you that email address when i'm ready to get payment from you

Previous quotes: For anyone who has gotten a quote from me already, I will honor the price I quoted you!

Other notes:
I don't draw mature or fetish art, so please don't ask. And I reserve the right to refuse any commission without explanation

I will post another journal announcing my slots opening soon!
  • Watching: adventure time!
i dunno, it just keeps going...

But life is good!   I've been married for almost two months, and I love it!  my aunt promises to get me my wedding pictures sometime next week, so i just have to be patient... i just can't wait to see them!

so Frostee and I bought a house to live in, we looked at renting but couldn't find anywhere to take us with our two big dogs niko:… and sasha:… the house we did find is perfect for us!  it's an older house, built in 1924, but it was well taken care of and has a new kitchen!  we love cooking together, especially trying to cook gourmet food like the Iron chefs (LOVE that show)  it has two bedrooms (one to sleep and one for my epic craft room!)  one bath, a small mud room/dog room, and a cellar thing(yay storage)  it's on a corner lot and we have a good sized back yard for the puppies.  the nieghborhood is great and we just love it here!

so this summer i tried to get an internship, i applied to a few places at the end of winter semester and didn't get any of them.  but a few weeks after getting back from our honeymoon, another intership appeared!  it was right up my alley so I applied.  the stupid thing is, our professors always tell us to have a professional sounding email, no soccergirl88 or echodragon's.  i had had one that was my maiden name, so i quickly made a new one with my new name.  I had thought that i had set up email forwarding correctly, but it didn't work.  so when they emailed me back, i had no idea, until i decided to check that account randomly.  but it was too late, the date for me to send back the animation test and the interview was already past.  it made me want to die.  but there must me some reason it happened, maybe a better opportunity is headed my way...

I really wanted some way to help contribute financially to our family, but i didn't want to get some fastfood job, were i couldn't use my creativity or increase my skills or where it would take up all my time and energy so i wouldn't have time to work on my portfolio, so i decided to open up my art commissions.  you can find more info about that here:… know it won't add much, but at least it'll help fund our fursuit projects.

speaking of which, we're going to Rainfurrest this year!  i'm working hard to complete my fursona suit, it's looking great!  and frostee is working on a suit too, but he wants to keep it secret for now. <3

anyways, that's all i have for right now.  hope everyone is doing well!

  • Watching: my puppies run around the house
  • Playing: freecell
  • Drinking: lots of warter
back from honeymoon, yay!  i love being married!  

update and pictures to come

  • Eating: Rits
  • Drinking: lots of warter

For valentines day I want to tell you all about the love of my life and all that he means to me. <3

I met bryce through facebook nearly a year ago and let me tell you it has been the best year of my life!!  he is the best thing that has ever happened to me, and i'm so glad to spend my life with him.  

the first thing i noticed about bryce was his sultry voice.  he surprised me with a video showing me the zerg in the StarCraft 2 beta, after we had been emailing for a while:… of all it was sweet of him show it to me and i was instantly attracted to his voice.  i am still love his voice, especially when he whispers sweet nothings in my ear <3

the next thing i notiticed was how much a gentleman bryce was and he still is!  from our first date he has opened every single door for me ^>^ it took me a little while to get used to letting him carry my bag, but now it is so sweet when he does.  it makes me feel special when he take me buy the hand to lead me through a crowd, or opens the car door and helps me step out ^>^

i love how supportive bryce is too, he doesn't put me down for any crazy ideas that i have, he gets excited with me! I was afraid I'd find someone who wouldn't support my hobbies, or me using and developing my talents.  My talents are important to me and I know I'm supposed to develop them and I know I can do lots of good with them.  the sphere that i live in forces me into a stereotype of getting married, instantly getting pregnant and being a stay at home mom for the rest of my life.  now, that's what i want to do eventually, but i feel it'd be a waste for me to not have a career for a while seeming as i am investing so much in school right now.  bryce understands that and feels the same way!  I'm grateful he is so supportive of me.

bryce is a very dedicated, hard-working person, he goes to school and works full time but still has time to make me feel loved.  we live more than an hour and a half apart and i don't have a car... he drives down every weekend to spend time with me!  on days that we can't see each other, he calls me during his breaks at work ^>^ he is so busy with school work and me that he doesn't have a lot of time for other things like entertainment for himself, sleep and sometimes food. i know that he'll never leave my side!

i love how well we communicate too! it's been a kind of long distance relationship the whole time we've been dating so we've really been able to build our kind of love on something other than just physical aspects.  bryce makes me super comfortable and i know he loves me so i have no problem talking to him about anything!  we talk through any misunderstandings that we have and it has really saved us from a lot of heartache.

so i love you babe!  thanks for being the best ever to me!  i am looking forward to a lifetime of valentines days with you <3

TS;DR (too sappy, didn't read) : bryce is the best!
  • Listening to: my love song playlist
  • Reading: old love emails &lt;3
  • Eating: vitamin C
  • Drinking: lots of warter
hey everyone!  its been a while since i've updated my journal, and i'm sad because that means that this journal… wont be on my front page anymore :'(  

anyways, school is going good!  my class just started working on our senior film!  we are doing a story about the greatest hair dresser in the world!  sorry i can't give you many detail on the story but it is going to be hilarious ;)  but i was selected to be the modeling lead!  that means i am in charge of getting all the characters, props, and environments built in the computer.  it is a lot of responsibility, but also an amazing opportunity. i'm so excited! i've already started to model the main character, estefan, and let me tell you, he is awesome!

i'm a little sick too, just a cold, but my nose is raw from blowing :(

in other news, wedding plans are going okay.  everything is coming together, but it is a little stressful trying to reign in my mother from going crazy.  yeaaaaah.... there is intresting conflicts going on with my mom and I.  one of the weirdest things is that she is altering my dress in a way that FORCES me to loose weight.  :/  i mean, i'm not over weight, so she is essentially asking me to shrink my hip bone.  *le sigh* oh well, she'll notice eventually.  i'm not to concerned though with all the planning, what ever happens it'll be the best day of my life :love: i'll be married to the love of my life for time and all eternity :heart: :iconfrosteefox: :heart:

I hope youve all been enjoying all the uploads i've been submitting, i've got a goal to upload something at least every week this semester.  i'm doing good so far!  

but in sad news, i miss my fiance :tears: we are both busy and our schedules are almost opposite this semester.  well, not so much opposite, but enough off that the two hour drive to see each other can't happen. so we only get to see each other on Saturdays and Sundays.  but good thing is that we only have to do this for 3 1/2 months more.  then we will be living together :love:  

and i can't wait for this weekend :eager: i get to spend the long weekend up there! i'll be spending the night at his parents house, but i'll get to see him all day saturday, sunday and monday ^^ yay!!

TL;DR: i'm modeling lead! wedding planning momzilla and i miss frostee

:heart::heart::heart: :iconfrosteefox::iconkazulgfox: :heart::heart::heart:
  • Listening to: my love song playlist
  • Eating: vitamin C
  • Drinking: lots of warter
oh wow, did i just blurt that on the internets?  hehe…

okay, any of you who have bothered to read any of my other journals are probably quite shocked.  its no wonder because i was super bitter before. Its like God reached down and slapped me in the face and then sent a giant love missile to explode my life into a different direction.   i look back and i'm a little embarrassed for being so pessimistic.  i know i'm eating my words and eating them hard, but i'm enjoying every bite.  i wouldn't want my life to have turned out any different.

soooooo now for the story in the form of a fun story :3

once upon a time there was a Gryphon named Kazul.  She grew up in the great central valley but when she started to grow up she moved to the south valley.  At first she had a hard time because she had to find all new friends so she went online and found some other animals that lived in the valley.  She made friends with a tiger, a bear and a fox and they had some fun times together.  But she had also met a blue fox named Frostee online, he lived in the north valley so he couldn't come play with the other animals.  Kazul knew it was frostee's birthday soon so she drew him a picture, he was so surprised and thankful that he sent her an email saying 'thankyou!' She responded with a 'you're welcome!'  they started emailing back and forth for a while, then Frostee got brave and asked Kazul on a date.  She happily agreed!  Their first date was so much fun that they agreed on having another date.  Kazul was so excited! She had a really good feeling about everything that was happening in her life.  
Pretty soon Kazul and Frostee became Boyfriend/Girlfriend.  Kazul had never been so happy before in her life!  Frostee was so good to her, he would trek clear down from north valley to spend time with her.  They fell in love and their love just kept growing and growing.  Then one night, after enjoying some fireworks, frostee got brave again and told kazul how much he loved her and that he wanted more than anything to help her dreams come true.  kazul was blown away by Frostee's love and fell even more deeply in love.  They continued to build an already awesome relationship.  Then on September 11, they took a hike up a canyon to see a waterfall.  When they reached the top, and no one else was around, Frostee dropped to one knee and pulled out a ring.  He asked kazul if she would marry him so that they could be together forever.  She was so surprised and overwhelmed that all she could say was 'yes!' and then 'no way, no way, no way' she couldn't believe that her life would be turning out so perfectly and she wouldn't change anything about her whole life.  The end.  

Awww, wasn't that a sweet story? now to write a short note to my Fiance:  Bryce, thank you for being so amazing to me.  you are so good to me all the time, always building me up and working with me when we disagree.  i love it how chivalrous you are to me and how kind you are to others too.  You're so thoughtful and selfless all the time, always so willing to help someone out when ever you can.  i love you like crazy and i always will.  :heart: :heart: :heart: i feel so blessed that i found you and i am crazy excited for our future together.  i love you!

yay for being overly sentimental on the internets!

summary: i'm engaged and couldn't be happier :love:
  • Listening to: SC2 soundtrack
  • Reading: the Fires of Heaven
  • Watching: Invader Zim, Deathnote, FMA: Brotherhood
  • Playing: SC2
  • Eating: uh ahpul
  • Drinking: warter
1. What is your best friend's name?
Bryce, who you know as Frostee D Fox :iconfrosteefox:

2. What color underwear/boxers wearing now?
black and silky

3. What are you listening to right now?
SC2 soundtrack

4. What's your favorite number?
6 or 23

5. What was the last thing you ate?
hotdawgs!  with the most delicious homemade sweet pickle relish P:

6. If you were a crayon what color would you be?
Caribbean Green

7. How is the weather right now?
sunny breezy hot

8. Who was the last person you talked 2 on the phone?
Frostee <3

9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
their height and voice.

10. Do you have a significant other?
sure do <3<3<3

11. Favorite TV show?
well it was lost, but now that is over.  sooooooo i'll say Invader Zim

12. Siblings?
3 older sisters, an older brother and a younger brother

13. Height?

14. Hair color?
Dark brown

15. Eye Color?
Hazel!  they switch between mostly brown or mostly green from day to day

16. Do you wear contacts?
no, i use my real eyes to see

17. Favorite Holiday?

18. Month?
as in my favorite? or what it is now? i love November because it is my birthmonth but it is august now

19. Have you ever cried for no reason?
well there is always a reason but i have cried over tiny little reasons

20. What was the last movie you watched?
Sum of all fears

21. Favorite Day of the Year?
April 1st ;]

22. Are you too shy to ask someone out?
not anymore :D

23. Can you do a headstand (not using the wall)?
i've never been able to do that.

24. Hugs or Kisses?
depends on the day. right now i need a hug ;]

25. Chocolate or Vanilla?
Vanilla most of the time.  with chocolate chips

26. Do you want your friends to respond to this?

27. Who is most likely to respond?

28. Who is least likely to respond?
Barack Obama

29. What books are you reading?
the Wheel of time: the fires of heaven

30. Piercings?
just in my ears.  i've always thought that nose jewels are pretty though i would never get one.

31. Favorite movie?
Ooooo, that is a toughy.... i'll say the Matrix Trilogy. but i recently saw Drag Me To Hell.  that movie was totally awesome!

32. Favorite football Team?
i dont really keep up on sports so i'll say BYU. go cougs!

33. what were u doing before this?
Fursuiting at a JDRF walk ^>^

34. Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn?
sugared! kettle corn ftw!

37. Dogs or cats?
more of a dog person, but i'd love to have a cat.

38. Favorite flower?
Daisies or those miniature roses.  

39. Been caught doing something you weren't supposed to do?
yes *hangs head in shame * its so tempting when you have your own laptop in class!

40. Do you have a best friend of the opposite sex?
lots and lots

41. Have you ever loved someone?
yep! and i still love them, a whole lot <3<3<3

42. Who would you like to see right now?
i want to go see Luke Bryan, he is an attractive man with an attractive voice

43. Are you still friends with people from kindergarten?
i am, though i only keep in real contact with one.

44. Have you ever fired a gun?
yes i have!  though i do prefer a bow.

45. Do you like to travel by plane?
i want to travel by plane... someday!

46. Right-handed or Left-handed?

47. How many pillows do you sleep with?
three :F

48. Are you missing someone?
i'm missing a few friends, but i have the one i love beside me

49. Do you have a Tattoo?
nope, and never will

50. Anybody that you like right now?
heck yes!
  • Listening to: SC2 soundtrack
  • Watching: Invader Zim, Deathnote, FMA: Brotherhood
  • Playing: SC2
  • Drinking: warter
i was tagged by :iconfrootcake:  *glomps her*

1. Post these rules
2. Each tagged person must post 8 things about themselves on their journal.
3. At the end you have to choose 8 people to tag, and post their icons on the same journal.
4. Go to their page and send a message saying you tagged them.
5. NO tag-backs

1. I am studying 3D animation at Brigham Young University (and i just found out a few days ago that they are giving me a scholarship (i haven't found out how much yet, but free money is still free money, amirite?)
2. I am a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints, or Mormon if you prefer (if you couldn't tell from me going to BYU ) :)
3. it has been the happiest month-ish of my life and it is all thanks to this man: :iconfrosteefox:
4. this song is my absolutely favorite song in the entire world ^>^ <3…
5. i'm really excited to be done with school this semester so that i can go home and work at the local Mosquito Abatement.  that's right, i kill mosquitoes for the government and i love it.
6. i'm a furry, my fursona is a half american kestrel half cougar gryphon.  i had a really neat experience with a wild kestrel and i love gryphons, but putting a lion seemed to exotic.  i live in the american west and love it here, so a cougar just seemed to work.  7
7. my favorite place in the world is my chair.  it looks like this:… exect it doesn't have a baby in it and it is black.  it is perfect for relaxing, sleeping, homeworking, internet surfing, tv watching, cuddling and more.  i love it.
8.  ya know, i think lots of my above facts about myself could be broken into 2 or three, so imma gunna skip this one.  :P

now i know this has gone around like a dozen times(even i've done it before) so if you feel like re doing it be my guest.  and thanks for reading if you do.

and also i need to let the internets know that my life exploaded(in a good way). my outlook on life, espesially relationship has took a complete turn around. no joke.  if you've read my previous journals at all (they're all kinda depressing) you'll be very surprised to hear this.  i have a boyfriend now. ^^ i still can't believe it. i can't see how i can be any happier :D    just thought you ought to know ;P
  • Listening to: josh turner &lt;3
  • Watching: lost and chuck
  • Drinking: black &amp;blue berry brew Sobe
...I am in love with Josh Turner. roommate is super awesome

...i am in love with unicycling.

...I dislike valentines day.

...furries are weird and awesome at the same time.

...i need to work harder, better, faster, and stronger on school stuff.

... i need to buy new pants.

seriously, i need to go to Walmart and buy the new Josh Turner album.  the song 'your smile' just might have taken the place of 'would you go with me' for my favorite all time song.  while i'm at it, i just need to buy all of his albums. but i'm too much of a stickler when it comes to money to spend anything :'[  Not to mention that Josh is super attractive... i love cowboys!  espesially his scruff *hugesigh*

I didn't ask my roommate too, but one sunday at church (one week that i had gone home for my dad's birthday) totally blew up at weirdie #1 (see *le sigh*).  okay so she didn't really 'blow up'  but through the course of the conversation, she told him that i was not at all interested in him.  it must have worked because i haven't seen or heard from him since.  :D  horay!

Unicycling is so freakin fun.  i've been riding it to campus a lot lately.  i need to get more hours in on just riding it so i can get even better... i still kinda wave my arms around like an idiot while riding.  here's a video of me unicycling and juggling in my fursuit in case you are interested:…, unicycling it super difficult.  i've been trying to learn for several years, this semester i've dedicated some extra time to it to try and get better though.  :]  if you guys ever get the chance, spend some time learning the unicycle, it is difficult, but sooo rewarding.  it is soo worth all the pain ;D

that line pretty much explains it's self.  the day has never held any significance for me accept to remind me that i'll probably be an old cat lady:… also reminds me of a song:…

It's true!  but i love it so much that i don't care ^>^

and yes.  i'm a lazy bum.  and i've had lots of anxiety about things this semester... my head just goes crazy with thoughts and i can't concentrate, or i get so depressed that i don't want to work.  curse my stupid feelings.  and this semester i've noticed i've become quite bitter and lazy about what i say.  i always catch myself saying really mean things before i think them through.  i'm a terrible person.  curse my stupid self.  i used to be so nice and very cautious about everything i said.  i had gaurds set up around all my behaviors because i was so scared i'd offend anyone.  i've seemed to stop caring about that now.  strange.

yup.  i've lost lots of weight and my pants don't fit.  it's annoying.
  • Listening to: angry music
  • Watching: lost and chuck
  • Eating: guacamole
  • Drinking: warter
ohai guys!

i was just about to go to bed, when i thought to myself, "let's get on DA and do stuff"  and i guess tonight 'doing stuff' includes writing in my very public journal. but i should tell you about some dreams i had the other day.  they make me laugh now, but i was seriously freaked out by them.  

I am usually a very lucid dreamer, and i can often times consciously  guide my dreams to go in the direction of my pleasing (i have had some pretty cinema-epic dreams, it is pretty much awesome.)  but now and again i have a dream where i can't control anything and they don't end like i want. i call these nightmares. and rarer still, i have dreams that are so real, i get confused as to what i did in the dream and what happened in real life.  just last week, i had three, uber real nightmares; one a night for three nights in a row.  

nightmare #1:  weirdie1 (see '*le sigh*' ) came over to my apartment one evening.  he proceeds to tell me how much he loves me and how much he longs to kiss me. he was spouting cheesy love poems and making gestures.  i politely told him that i wasn't interested in dating him, but then he got super angry!  and then he started ranting on how horrible a person i was for not kissing him.  

nightmare #2:  weirdie2 (ughn stalker from last year) gets off his mission early for medical reasons and finds where i live.  he wouldn't stop touching me.

nightmare #3:  weirdie1 is over at my neighbor's apartment and we are watching Iron chef.  he tries to cuddle with me on the couch, i move, he moves next to me, i move again, he moves again, so i go back over to my apartment and HE FOLLOWS.  he asks me to reconcider dating him and i refuse again.  he gets angry again and leaves my apt.  after calming myself down a bit, i go back over to my neighbors apt to find that everyone has been brutally murdered and weirdie1 has blood on his hands.  i run back over to my apt, i manage to have time to grab my big Maglight and my skinning knife before running into the bathroom and locking the door.  weirdie1 starts banging on the door telling me all sorts of nastiness.  and poor me is in the bathroom standing on the toilet ready to bash in his head with my maglight then stab him with my knife.  i woke up before he got in.  

yup.  i was pretty freaked out.  ya see, i can handle one uber realistic dream at a time, but three in a row threw me for a loop.  and having them all about the same thing bothered me too.  Oh!  and here's the kicker:  the day after the third nightmare, i got a text on my phone saying that 'weirdie2 has requested your friendship on facebook'  x_X i just about died when i got that.  turns out, he got his friend to get on his facebook, track me down to ask me for my address so he could write to me.  

that's my story the end.  

hmmmm... maybe i should end on a happier note... uhhhhh.  I love kestrels :3  very very much.  and i got to pet one on Saturday.  It. Was. So. Awesome.
  • Watching: LOST TOMORROW
  • Eating: food intake today: 4cookies, BeefRamen, 1candycane
  • Drinking: warter
so someone gave me a month premium membership :woohoo:  i love you to death.  i'm not kidding.  i was going to try and figure out the journal skins before i posted this, but the seem really hard O.o anyways, yes i love you to death and if you want to note me who you are i could maybe hook you up with a sweet prize ^.^  but if you don't want to tell me, i still love you.  

also i've had the urge to upload a bunch of stuff.  so kind of prepare for uploads galore (mostly sketch dumps and older stuff, probably)  

lets see, there was something important i wanted to say....

oh yeah!  so the thing is i really want to start selling my earrings. i just need to figure out how to ship stuff :B but if you are a BYU person just note me an we'll work something out.  also, i've had the urge to make stuffed animals.  in the next couple weeks i'll be going to the fabric store so i can start playing around.

one more thing!  my neighbor is the creator of the Kids Know it Network, and he hired me to do some design work for his website.  he has hired me before to do some educational flash videos for his site, this time i get to help build the world for his new educational game site that he's developing.  he paid me in advance and i was able to buy the Adobe creative suite 4 Web premium.  i absolutely love Flash CS4 and Photoshop CS4, and i can't wait to learn Illustrator and Dreamweaver.

that is all.  lots of new projects and school about to start again.  woohoo!
  • Reading: The Fires of Heaven and Mistborn
  • Watching: Firefly and Chuck
  • Playing: mario kart wii
  • Eating: Salmon and gingerbread cookies
  • Drinking: A&amp;W
my life rocks and suck at the same time.  

reasons that my life rocks:
i'm going to BYU studying my life's passion: animation.  i'm learning so much and so fast and loving it so much.  i've learned so many juggling tricks this past year. i finished my cougar fursuit this year. my roommates and ward are great this year. i'm positive my drawing has improved.  i've made good friends with the other animation students in my class.  i've gotten closer to some of my friends from high school.  

reasons that my life sucks:
i'm going to BYU where the dating atmosphere is all about marriage.  i am attracted to someone that probably isn't intrested. i have 3 weirdies attracted to me.  


yes.  right now i am heavily thinking on the reasons that my life sucks.  the thing is, i'm a loser. i've never had a boyfriend. heck i've never been kissed.  i'm trying really hard to unleash all sorts of profanities against the weirdos i've met.  but what the crap is love? (i love that song btw)  due to a bad experience, i can't help but throw up in my mouth a little when i see couples cuddling or kissing.  is that what all love is? snuggling on a couch, touching the other person?  if it is, you can take love and shove it.. shove it hard.  keep your touching to yourselves, cause i don't want it. and that is why i dislike BYU.  the mindset of everyone here is get married, be happy and have kids for eternity.  i don't want that right now. i don't want to get married, i'm not freakin ready.  

anyways, now that i've announced some of my deeper feelings to the internet i feel better.
  • Reading: The Dragon Reborn and Mistborn
  • Watching: Harry Potter 6 and Chuck
  • Eating: my lip
yup, it is true.  by :iconchelsea-the-tomboy:  

*sigh*  first journal entry w00t!

1. Post these rules.
2. Each tagged person must post 10 things about themselves on their journal.
3. At the end, you have to choose and tag 10 people and post their icons on the same journal.
4. Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.
5. No tag-backs.

here goes nothing!

1. I have a secret desire to be a puppeteer and ventriloquist. (both of which i am working on)
2. when I am nervous while talking to people, instead of picturing them in there underwear, i picture them as the animal they best resemble.
3. I hate Reese's pieces. but i love a big spoon full of peanut butter.
4. If i could have one superpower it would be shapeshifting
5. I have never been kissed and can count the dates i've been asked on, on my fingers.
6. if i could have any pet it would be a gryphon, but in real life i'd have a horse... or a sarloos wolfhound.. or a pharoh hound... or a ferret.... or a llama....... on second thought i'd have all of them plus more.
7. i am really shy, and if i can get something done by myself (without asking for help) i will.
8. if i was a character in a movie, i can see myself as the reluctant leader type. If no one else steps up to the leadership role and chaos ensues, i have good enough leadership and organizational skills and will step up. on the same hand, i am eager to follow anyone who does take that position.
9. i think that most artist are crack pots. A blue line across a yellow canvass with a red triangle pointing at it does not have a deeper meaning of the struggle of life in it!!
10. i have a fear of small underground tunnels. if i can stand up in it, it's okay. it is the small ones that you have to army crawl through. (remember the scene in 'the count of monte cristo' where the old man and edmond are digging the escape tunnel? yeah i can't hardly watch that scene.) i am also slightly hydrophobic
11. i have an affinity for coins on the ground.
12. if i can keep my feet and neck warm in the winter, i don't get cold. but if my feet and neck get cold, i can't stop shivering.
13. i is a nerd. seriously, talk nintendo with me and we'll be best friends
14. I don't sleep that well, so instead i lay in bed and think up awesome book idea, movie idea, game idea, costume idea. all of them are brilliant and the sad thing is i don't have the time/skills to do most of them!!
15. I really really really want to learn how to play the banjo
16. i want to work for Dreamworks or Blizzard when i grow up.
17. my favorite scar, or grouping of scars rather, is a bunch of perfect nail-shaped marks on my right wrist and hand. :] it was probably from fighting with my brothers when we were kids.
18. I am trying to learn how to ride the unicycle in her spare time.
19. i used to carry a train-track-smashed penny in my pockey every where that i went. know i carry a train-track-smashed ruble that my brother brought home from russia. it is my good luck charm.
20. Loves her job and her major. not only are they really cool and fun, everyone is super impressed when I tell them

... okay so i got carried away, but because i have a total of 9 people watching me and only like 3ish friends i will only tagg a few peeps

tagging :iconfwa-tair:  :icontwoshoeteen:
  • Listening to: the sound of my dog licking herself *shudders*
  • Reading: The Dragon Reborn and Mistborn
  • Playing: Mouse Hunt and Myth Monger
  • Eating: an Eclair